I am the world's biggest . . .

Hypocrite!

About 5 years ago,

I got very interested in FOOD and nutrition.

I started researching all the

chemicals, additives, preservatives ect.

Finding out

What they REALLY were.

What was REALLY bad and

What was okay.

Learning

What my body needs and

What the best way to get it was.

And ever since learning those things

I read every label.

and I mean EVERY label!

NOT the nutritional facts

(I think they can be deceiving).

but the INGREDIENTS.

I chose to only buy things with natural ingredients.

NOT necessarily organic, but

NATURAL . . .

REAL FOOD . . .

Food that my Grandmother,

and great Grandmother would recognize.

(a perfect rule of thumb)

I started baking from scratch,

avoiding boxed brownies, cookies,

cakes, pancakes, muffins ect.

and all the EXTRA stuff they comes with them.

I remember being at the grocery store

watching MOTHERS

buy and feed their kids

Goldfish,

sugary fruit snacks,

juice/punch

sugar cereal

ect.

I watched these women

yelling at their kids

"settle down"

"be quiet"

I just wanted to tell them

"Lady, do you know what is in this stuff?"

"Sugar, sugar and preservatives that our bodies turn into sugar"

"STOP GIVING IT TO YOUR KIDS"

"THEY don't know better, but YOU should!"

It made me cringe to see the choices

that UNEDUCATED people

where making for themselves

and their children.

I wouldn't say I was an extremist.

Not even close.

I would eat out

(every once in a while)

and order regular/fatty/delicious items of the menu.

And anyone who knows me

KNOWS I gotta have my Coke

(but only every once in a while)

and regretfully I REALLY prefer

regular/full sugar COKE.

Mmmmmm.

But I felt like those few exceptions

were allowed

BECAUSE I was eating

(and drinking)

so well the rest of the time

I LOVED eating this way!

I lost weight.

I had tons of energy.

and I worked through my infertility

strictly through diet and

got pregnant.

I continued these eating habits

though my pregnancy

and after Hayden was born.

I made all her baby food,

She was happy,

I was happy,

life was good.

Then when Hayden was 6 Months old

Something changed.

I got pregnant again.

This was a GOOD thing!

A REALLY GOOD thing!

but different than it had been

with my previous pregnancy.

I CRAVED, bad stuff.

REALLY BAD stuff.

Kraft Mac and Cheese

(almost everyday)

Totinos Frozen pizzas

and Coke, Coke, and more Coke

(it was the only thing to ease my nausea)

The list goes on and on.

As I started slipping off wagon,

So did Hayden.

I started getting LAZY

making her quick CONVENIENCE lunches.

and CONVENIENCE snacks.

I never STOOPED to the level

of Goldfish or

sugar cereal,

but none the less,

POOR, POOR choices.

This continued through my pregnancy

and up until NOW.

I am so disgusted looking at my pantry

and the choices that I have made

for my family

my babies

myself.

and I AM EDUCATED!

I DO know this stuff,

I have NO excuse.

So TODAY is the day I go back.

Back to GOOD foods.

Back to HEALTHY foods.

Back to REAL foods.

Back to SCRATCH cooking.

NO MORE BOXES!!!

NO MORE Mac and Cheese!

NO MORE garbage, junk food.

I am at home ALL day, EVERY day.

and my JOB is to take care of my FAMILY.

take care of them

spiritually,

mentally,

and PHYSICALLY.

So I am getting back up off my LAZY butt

and going to DO MY JOB!!!

It is WRITTEN, and now shall be DONE.